I have been waiting for a job these last two months, and wondered what i should do, that can make me productive beside watching movies (i love movies - except horror, explicit thriller, and semiporn comedy); and then i recalled that i have this blog, so i started writing again! Hopefully, this can be a productive habit that i can keep and hopefully, I can be what written on the image above. :D :D
I could get this opportunity by the referral of one of the most influential person that i knew in my life. Anyway, the person who invited me, was one of the most influential person in the financial institution, so I knew that if he wants to meet me in person, it is such an honour as He himself must have tons of to-dos and responsibilities.
Deep in my heart, i prayed that i can get that job, because i have been waiting for a job for almost 2 months (eventhough i dont know about the exact position and job desc i will get). Came to think about it, it actually opened my mind about another phenomenon that is happening in my generation (at least it is my hypothesis, havent been tested - just my thoughts; will discuss abt it in the next post).
As i went inside the interview room, i felt quite tense and nervous, 
but the interviewer was nice and brings relaxed atmosphere. The interview went, well in my opinion - it didnt go well, i was nervous that i forgot the basic functions of HR, something that i should have remembered automatically without even trying to dig into my memories; other thing, i was nervous that i couldnt recall 2 of the 3 elective subjects that i studied during my master. Pretty terrible. The night before the interview, however, i felt quite unsure about the interview, it was like i could see myself not getting the job.
but the interviewer was nice and brings relaxed atmosphere. The interview went, well in my opinion - it didnt go well, i was nervous that i forgot the basic functions of HR, something that i should have remembered automatically without even trying to dig into my memories; other thing, i was nervous that i couldnt recall 2 of the 3 elective subjects that i studied during my master. Pretty terrible. The night before the interview, however, i felt quite unsure about the interview, it was like i could see myself not getting the job.
The interview then went normally, i felt that it was directed to be like a coaching session rather than an interview. He jokingly said that the interview was actually a PhD lecture. It indeed, refreshed my brain on the basic HR concepts that i should dig in and understand more deeply (that i can say it automatically without even thinking as it has been ingrained in my memories); it also injected my brain with motivation, motivation to do even greater things, like going to school again and studying for something that i have been interested in very much, psychology (it is not that i want to be a clinical psychologist - i just want to learn about psychology more deeply that i may apply it in my daily life).
He asked me if i like to read books, and I said, yes, well i was quite hesitant if my reading hobby is really valid as i dont really read "intellectual" and "serious" books - most of the books i read were novels (please dont judge) and books talking about relationships, plus a little bit of autobiography. Hmm... Could it be categorized as a valid reading hobby? So i adjusted my statement, saying that i like reading but hate books which is filled only with theories. Then, he recommended a list of books, he said, the books are interesting because they are also filled with stories, about people, and about companies. So i thought, okay, maybe i can chew them. I put the list in my ipad notes but not really sure whether i should read them in the future.
The interview came to an end and not surprisingly, he said that i dont get the job, because i am still lack of experience. He suggested me to join in the selection for management trainee program because he believed that if i can join in, it will be much easier for me to develop in the future.
I must be lying if i say that i am not disappointed with the result. Those 2 months, waiting on phone calls, wondering why job hunting is really hard, and wondering why i bothered to study really hard by believing that good grades will give me job easily. I came home not satisfied and actually, 2 days before the interview, my self esteem was shattered - it was trigerred by an event - i think i dont need to put it here - but it really destroyed my defense system on negative thoughts; i gave up on those negativity that crushed me hardly. However, i am really thankful that God gave me a really supportive mom, through her words, i could pick up those shattered pieces and start to believe again, that God's plans - eventhough i cant understand it sometimes - is the best.
I came home, lie on the bed, and thinking... But that time, i prayed to God to give me enough strength to overcome that wave of negativity which tried to go into my mind. And i think again... Then somehow a statement popped in my head, "be thankful that you got that interview session, for eventhough you dont get the job, you gained valuable insights and ideas about your life - about what you should do for your life." Then i realized, it is indeed, very true. I was really inspired by that short interview session.
The list of those recommended books, then came into my mind. I thought, i really need to upgrade my knowledge if i want to develop myself. Self-Satisfaction is not a good thing. So i drove to the nearest shoppung mall and bought two of the books from the list.
One of the book that i just finished was entitled, "The Power of Habit" by Charles Duhigg. He did not lie, the interviewer clearly told me that the book contain stories about people. The book got me drowned inside it. Now that i have finished it, i wonder why i just started to read these kind of books when they are actually really useful. My stereotypes on books - i think, have really blinded me. I always stereotyped them as boring, thick, and i thought i will never finish one. But those stereotypes were wrong, i just finished a book, 284 pages single spaced 10' times new roman.
I have fallen in love with this kind of book, and i am on my way to read more and more and more of them. :)
Just like the title, this is my thankyou note, to GOD, who has crafted an interesting story - this story of my life - that those events could happen; to my Mom, who has been my bestest friend and my loyal supporter throughout all my ups and downs; and lastly, to the interviewer, thank you Sir for inspiring me through your "coaching/interview" session.
P.s. Ill try to post the book review in several days.
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